[	mood	|	exhausted	]
[	music	|	Beastie Boys	]

Today was such a long day..........even though it was a half day. I had to memorize a bunch of chords in  like a half hour, cause I haven't practiced in like a week. Work was sooo long, cause I got there early because of the half day. I'm so sleepy.......It's like 10, so I should be watching ER, but I'm too lazy to get up. Watched FRIENDS today.....made me cry. I think that's pretty pathetic, I laugh when I get hurt, but when some characters on a fictional show cry, I cry too....Oh Well, guess I better get up now.....

You eye me like a pisces when I am weak

I've been locked inside your heart shaped box for weeks

[	mood	|	amused	]
[	music	|	"Feelin This"-Blink 182	]

<img src="http://images.quizilla.com/P/ponygirl2008/1072789297_ictures006.jpg" border="0" alt="   "><br>You will marry Johnny depp. He has a mind of his<br>own and chooses movies mecause he likes the<br>idea, not to make money or become a hearthrob.<br>He will always respect you and stand up for<br>you. Congrats!!!
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I Love this quiz! Well, I love the Johnny part more.....

[	mood	|	confused	]
[	music	|	Pearl Jam- Jeremy Spoke in Class Today	]

Random stuff #1. Sum up your opinion or impression of me in one word, leave it as a comment in this posting, and then post this sentence in your own journal. #2. I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. I will answer them honestly. Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

 I was having so much trouble with my Enlgish poem, I couldn't figure out what it meant. I mean, am I just stupid or is it kinda confusing:

 NOW I make a leaf of Voices—for I have found nothing mightier than they are,

And I have found that no word spoken, but is beautiful, in its place.

O what is it in me that makes me tremble so at voices?

 Surely, whoever speaks to me in the right voice, him or her I shall follow,

As the water follows the moon, silently, with fluid steps, anywhere around the globe. 

 All waits for the right voices;

Where is the practis’d and perfect organ? Where is the develop’d Soul?

For I see every word utter’d thence, has deeper, sweeter, new sounds, impossible on less terms.

I see brains and lips closed—tympans and temples unstruck,

 Until that comes which has the quality to strike and to unclose, 

 Until that comes which has the quality to bring forth what lies slumbering, forever ready, in all words

I'm so sick of English right now. In fact I'm not gunna speak English anymore. Ahora, voy a tocar la guitarra y cantare en espanol tambien. Adios!

[	mood	|	sleepy	]
[	music	|	Sunrise- Norah Jones	]

I've been up since five and now I'm just waiting for Peter's mom to get here......she's late again. I'm going to run for vice-president this year, so there's another thing I have to start working on. she's here...

[	mood	|	cold	]
[	music	|	"The Great Disappointment"-A.F.I.	]

Just sitting here trying to do my poem for english. Everything I keep writing down is kind of sad and I want to do a funny poem...so I keep having to start over. I'm kind of sick of doing this homework thing...I think I'll stop. I can't stop thinking about the fact that I have to switch schools next year. I mean, I'll miss all my friends and everything, but I really don't care at all about anything else. I mean, no one at my school really even knows me, they just know stuff that I tell them, stuff that doesn't even really matter. What bands I like or movies, stuff like that. I don't think it makes a difference where I am to be honest. Write now, I'll I can think about why any of this stuff even matters...I mean what school I go to, who my friends are all that....Oh well, it doesn't matter.

 I'm working on my next song...It's worse than the last one:

Fifteen years pass and I don't know what love is                                                                                                      nothing but hatred surrounds all my emotions                                                                                                             there is no way to illustrate how I feel                                                                                                            intimidations make life just too surreal

I suck so bad at writing, I don't care though, I'm just bored. I guess I'm just having a bad day, might be the rain of sumthing. Oh well....I'm just gonna go play the guitar, I'm sure it'll cheer me up.

[	mood	|	bored	]
[	music	|	"A Single Second"- A.F.I.	]

Wow....I am so bored. It's computer class, and I'm just sitting here listening to A.F.I.'s album SHUT YOUR MOUTH AND OPEN YOUR EYES. It kicks so much ass. My nose ring kinda hurts, cause I got it tightened last night and Jimmy was in a bad mood and I think he tightened it too much. Oh well, it dosn't really matter. I've been writing a bunch of songs and stared working on the guitar part of them all. I can't wait till the day is over, cause I fell so sick. The bell just rang so I hafta go to Chemistry now....awesome.

Things I said I'd never do I've done......Those I said I'd never be i've become.....

[	mood	|	tired	]
[	music	|	" Police and Thieves" THE CLASH	]

It's so early....Just waiting for Peter's mom to pick me up for school. Tomorrow I have a doctor's appointment thingy, so I won't hafta go. All I can really do write now is write more music. Lately, that's all I've been doing: Lyrics at school and the Music at home. Write now, I'm working on this one, it sucks, but I don't care:

I have seen you herebefore                                                                          A faceless creature that bleeds the night                                                   And now, you've unlocked the door                                                           In the shadow of the sun, I burn                                                                   Need to run, to hide from the poisonous light

You haunt my dreams, you haunt my life                                                visions of bleeding flowers(crowd my mind)                                              No sense of strength or power(left inside)                                                     I need to find a way( to get out now before it's too late)

It sucks but, the music to it is really good, I think. She's here, so I gotta go...

[	mood	|	melancholy	]
[	music	|	"The Great Disappointment" A Fire Inside	]

I Kinda hate my life right now. I mean, everything I want to be, I can't. Life sucks, people suck. I dunno, it must just be the day I'm having.  I really don't feel like talking to anyone now. I feel like if I do, they might end up with a black eye.

Still can't get over the hottness of Davey, is it just me?

[	mood	|	frustrated	]
[	music	|	" ...But Home is Nowhere" A.F.I.	]

Ok, I've never done this before, so I don't know how it'll turn out. Today at school, everyone kept commenting on what i was wearing or drawing on my hands or whatever. Who the hell cares what I wear?!? I mean, I don't go around pointing and commenting on everyone else. Another thing, some people seem to disagree with my newfound obsession of Davey Havok. I mean, who cares if he has long hair or wears makeup, I obviously don't, so what do they care. People are generally pissing me off today. I don't say one word to anyone and they just continuously piss me off. I don't think any of them take me seriously, but they better start. I've never been so openly pissed off before or defensive, but right now I feel like kicking someone's ass. I guess I have all this rage or whatever and it's starting to come out. I'm kind of worried about tomorrow at school. When I let my emotions come out, there is nothing that can stop them. I'm worried I might ruin a few friendships if my anger grows anymore. I dont really know what to put in this journal thingy so I'll just put some fun cool stuff. I've written four songs in two days and even though I say they're not really about me, they are the most real things I've ever written.